- At Home
There is something that changes in a relationship between a child and a parent, when the parent is ill or almost dies. My daughter Jade and I talk about death more often then most because three years ago, my heart failed and I was being kept alive by machines. My daughter's love for me and her need for me at the time kept me alive. If I had died, I do believe and she agrees that she would have not been able to deal with it. She used to tell me that she could not imagine the world without me. The last three years, I have watched her mature into a beautiful self-confident young woman. Wise beyond her years. We were talking about death again and what would happen, if I died and she laughed and told me to wait a year until she could drive! We then got really quiet and I asked her, if I died tomorrow, I think you would be OK and she nodded and said I would. I would miss you every day and be so lost and alone for awhile, but you have given me so much in the last three years, that I would be OK. It has been quite a struggle for me at times to keep my spirts up and to heal and try and show her what strength is, but I can honestly say, Ava you are a success!