is this extreme anxiety??? =/?
I asked a question similar to this about a week ago and i got a lot of the same answers =/I'm 14 (a lot of people say it's my hormones) and i'm worried about EVERYTHING...
For example, if my friend asks me to come over to their house, i automatically think of all the possible scenarios that could play out badly for me (and a lot of them are completely stupid...) like, i'll choose not to go over there because i'm afraid i'll wear a pair of jeans that are tight and uncomfortable and so i won't want to get stuck there in tight jeans for the entire day... or, i'll be afraid that i'll end up annoying them or something then it will get awkward between us...
it's really irritating that i do this... i like hanging out with my best friend (he's like a brother to me) but i just can't help but feel trapped there as soon as i get into his mom's car =/
and also, i'll start worrying about my boyfriend or something when he isn't able to call (like the other day he promised he would come over to see me but he couldn't call or stop by and that night he sent a message to me on myspace saying he was sorry and sad and he wanted me to call him asap once i woke up... so, i spent 2 hours laying in bed worried about why he sounded so urgent... whether it was just that he was sorry for not calling or that something bad had happened or what..)
a lot of people tell me to go see a counselor or a doctor but i'm too afraid of talking about this with anyone because it's weird and because i don't have a doctor i go to see... when i'm sick (rarely) i go to the hospital...
so, yeah =/
and a lot of people also tell me i need to be put on ridelin (sp?) or some sort of anti depressant but i don't wanna do that because they're addictive and i'm too scared that they'll change me and i won't be ME anymore =/
please please please help >.<
i'm tired of this :(
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