On some days, I have to admit that my four children feel like 10!
Different needs, different schedules, and such different personalities.
On the Doctor’s the other day, Travis said that Mommies have the hardest job in the world. I especially appreciated that coming from an ER Doc who is saving lives. Regardless who was dishing out the acknowledgment, I took it and it went straight to the heart. We all know that some days are more demanding than others, but we also have thick skin and our responsibility vector is greater than most. I mean do we really have a choice?!?
Can you imagine if we just didn’t get to packing the lunches for school, or just felt too tired to make dinner for everyone, or maybe we just couldn’t organize our day well enough to make it to Brownie pick-up? Or maybe we just fell behind and ran an hour late for the soccer game. What if we just didn’t feel like going downstairs to warm up a bottle or change that messy stinky diaper? Everyone else seems to be able to slack from time to time in their professions and lives, but not us Moms! It’s crazy, but we always manage to find a way and we do it with love! Nice job Mommies, in case no one has told you in a while, being a good Mom is an amazing job and you are amazing for knocking it out!
Lately people have been asking me if I want to have any more kids. Funny thing is that in synchronicity David will nod yes and I will shake my head NO! I just can’t see when, where or HOW! I feel like I really want to enjoy Shaya and he’s the one who unfortunately comes last in the list of four. My big girls have their own set of needs and it’s all very timely with school and their social lives. Rain is extremely close to me and feels like I am only “her mommy;” she has a hard time sharing me with anyone. She now has her own school schedule part of the week and that’s my only shot at carving out some alone time with Shaya. It’s hard to juggle them all, and on top of it I’m working. This isn’t a bitch blog, I have just been structuring my schedule so that everyone gets what they need and on most days I need a few more hours or another me. Then there’s David and I and we are yet to have our time in the whole picture. I can’t imagine bringing another baby into the mix, it seems unfair and to be brutally honest, I’m too tired. I don’t think I’ve slept two nights consecutively in 9 years… I feel so blessed to have 4 healthy children. I had 4 great pregnancies, and I have my son! I am not about to start getting greedy in life.
Maybe if my 4 kids didn’t feel like a class room (actually that’s too organized of a visual) I would keep on going. But for now, I am still perfecting my teaching skills. Angelina Jolie, you win!