Snap Out of It!!!

Okay, I confess….I have been having one great pity party. I suvived a divorce, moving, losing someone I loved to cancer, and pushed ahead all while juggling six young children. I was like “The Little Engine That Could”, pushing ahead saying “I think I can, I think I can, I think I can”. But lately, I have felt like I have run out of steam. When I lost my job in November, it was as if I stopped believing myself when I said “I think I can”. I loved doing the radio show, I used to thank God every morning for allowing me the opportunity to do something I loved so much. I have thought about taking a radio job in another city, but the reality is that uprooting the kids at this point might not be the best thing for them. Writing is my passion, but lately have felt uninspired.
But something changed last night. My dad is in the hospital and i have been spending alot of time up there the past couple of weeks when the kids are at school. In the quiet, while sitting there, I have been doing a lot of reflecting, praying, crying, and digging deep to find that old part of me that was “The Little Engine That Could”. I was standing in the elevator when a woman got in. We rode up a few floors when suddenly she said, “you are Blythe, the one who writes for the paper”. “I get up every Sunday morning and turn to your column first. You will never know how much you inspire me to go on when things are tough. And you make me laugh and see that life is never perfect”. I stood there for a minute taking in what she was saying. Before I got off the elevator I gave her a hug and told her thank you so much. Her words made me feel that push to go on begin to stir again deep inside me.
So here I am. I used to write everyday. I stopped because I lost the belief in myself that I could push on through anything. We all are juggling so many things and we all have moments when we lose our momentum. It only takes one person’s kind words to change that. Today reach out to someone, even someone you don’t know, and say something nice. Your words just might be the push that person needs to become “The Little Engine That Could” who gets to the top of the mountain. Check back tomorrow….because I think I can, I know I can, and I will be back again to writing everyday! 🙂